Storm on the Horzion

http://www.moneymorning.com/2008/03/25/will-the-dollar-crash-how-to-fatten-your-portfolio-with-every-dip/-

I believe we are in a finical hurricane and America is currently in the eye of the storm where everything is currently clam and the birds are singing and the sun is shining. But in the vast distance,

Round 2 of the backside of the Storm.....Find a stable rock to build your finical house on and leave the sand dunes alone.......

Roller Derby

So Saturday night for the very first time i went to a Roller Derby the Arch Rival Roller Girls. It was so cool to see these women, on skates in a rink battle each other. Next cool thing about was the crowd was part of the action. I was sitting no more than 15 feet away from the track. You can see the Refs and Skaters falling on to people.

I just enjoy the atomsphere it was so intense and fun loving. I think i have become a fan of this sport.......

Running from the Lord

Lately I have been running for the Creator God Presence, not waking up and spending time with him. Chasing after the fleshly items, watching to much non-useful televisoin. You know what this is making me so up happy............

It is time for me to come back home, it is going to be a fight, cause the Word is true you Sow what you reap,............

Too Late

John 5:14

Afterward Jesus found him in the temple and said to him

"Behold, you have become well; DO NOT SIN ANY MORE, so that NOTHING WORSE may BEFALL YOU

Gosh only if i had read this verse before Sunday, cause I think i just reap a problem with the Dream Center----Let's see if God's Mercy will come upon my LIFE in this situation.....

Brokeness

O God, i am so fragile. my dreams get broken, my relationships get broken, my heart gets broken, my body gets broken. what can i believe, except that you will not despise a broken heart, that old and broken people shall yet dream dreams, and that the lame shall leap for joy, the blind see, the deaf hear. what can i believe except what Jesus taught...that only what is first broken, like bread, can be shared. that only what is broken is open to your entry. that old wineskins must be ripped open and be replaced if the wine of the new life is to expand. so i believe Lord. help my unbelief. that i may have the courage to keep trying when im tired. and to keep wanting passionately when i am found wanting. O God, i am so frail. my life spins like a top, bounced about by the clumsy hands of demands beyond my doing, fanned by furies at a pace half a step from hysteria. so much to do. my days so few and fast spent. and i am mostly unable to recall what im rushing after. what can i believe except beyond the limits of my little prayers and careful creeds.. im not meant for dust and darkness, but for dancing, life, and silver starlight. help my unbelief. that i may have courage to love the enemies i have the integrity to make. to care for little else save my brothers and sisters of the human family. take time to truly be with them, take time to see, take time to speak, to learn with them before time takes us...and to fear failure and death less than the faithlessness of not embracing love's risks. O God, i am so frantic. somehow i have lost the gentleness in a flood of ambition. lost my sense of wonder in a maze of video games and computers, lost my integrity in a shuffle of commercial disguises, lost my gratitude in a swarm of criticism and complaints, lost my innocence in a sea of betrayal and compromises. what can i believe, except the touch of your mercy will ease the anguish of my memory, that the tug of your spirit will empower me to help carry now the burdens i have loaded on the lives of others. that the example of Jesus will again inspire me to find again humanity. So i believe Lord. help my unbelief. that i may have courage to cut free what i have been, and gamble on what can be. and on what you might laughingly do with trembling me for your incredible world.

i didnt write it.

but i prayed it.

i find something each day that makes life seem more real again.

Faith

Hebrew 11

Faith Chapther

Now Faith is the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen

As i read this chapter I just ask Father God to strength my inner Faith

Lately my Faith has been strentch to really believe that God is true to his promises in my personal life I do believe his Word when it speaks of things that concern Israel, Moses, Abel, Abraham, David, Jesus Return....

But how i can belive when put a person in my Heart as First come to St. Louis, then i fall under Pastorial Autority to be single for a year. And i have to sit by and watch another intern capture her Heart by simple doing the things i long to do. Only thing I can do is Wait upon the Lord and just Trust Him and Him Alone.....

Well Today is my Birthday I should be the most happiest day here on Earth for me, but it is just another day at least I don't think about suicide and just know that i have a purpose with Christ Jesus........ The Crazyest thing is the person I want to be Friends with, Fell in Love with Jesus the Same Day.....I was born.........

This Jack also being Court day...I have been lifting this man in prayer that Jesus would capture his Heart for his Glory..........

I never did finish my Last Post about being Lost at the Dream Center.......Oh well I just be silent well once again I just wait to Find my calling at the Church...........and ask Father God to open doors for His Glory.........

Lost But Found

These Last two day's I have been feeling Lost.

Over the weekend I had a awsome chance to fellowship with Alvado King (Martin Luther King's Niece) these has made my Heart more broken for the unborn or aborted babies.

I started to read 7 highly habits of highly effective people. The First 30 pages i learning how i judge and give assumptions on people...........Basicaly judging a book by it cover.......Well this needs to stop in my Heart

Well I finish this post up later There is so much on my Heart i want to get out........