Despair

I'm Longing to know the Father's Heart

Well here is my story as I tell it. April 4, 2007 I meet a Woman with amazing abiltys to walk in the Gifts of the Holy Spirit. I instanly I fell in Love as the Months went by up to June 2007, I believe our Hearts grow so ever closer.

Apparently she was a 2 year intern at the Dream Center, So I place myself under the Pastoral Authority considering her Heart/Soul. Pastor told me for one year i couldn't not call, email or send gifts to her. So now 5 months into Pastor's "Program" My Heart aches for this Woman tell how beatiful she is, how i enjoy listening to her sermons from home church Raven Assembly of God. How I journal my prayers over her Soul.

Well apparently another Intern as caught her attention, In which this has devesated me, but I have such deep forgiveness and love for both people that i wish them God Blessing and Joy

Now i only can trust Father God with my Heart and I just desire to Know Father God and seek after him...Father God is so Jealousy after my Heart. That he would not let another person takes his Place.

My Goal is to Journal my Journey's on a daily basis from the ups to the downs. I belive this coming Year is going to be awsome to Know God as a Single Man and not chasing after a Woman's Heart. But Chasing after God's Own Heart.....

Boundary Lines have fallen to me in Pleasant Places, Indeed that I have a Good Inhertance
Psalm 16


Love

Christopher